My husband was cheating with the woman next door on the mornings her husband and I left for work, and my three-year-old gave them away. Emma didn’t know what she was saying. She just kept repeating little words she’d heard on her daddy’s phone.
Twelve days before the Fourth of July, I got home from the clinic at 3:15. Emma waved her sippy cup at Wade as he headed out the door.
“Bye-bye, Sugar Bear!”
Nobody on earth called Wade anything but Wade. He walked into the screen door.
“What was that?” I asked.
“She got it from cartoons,” he said, recovering quickly. “Kids say all kinds of stuff.”
“I’ve watched every cartoon in this house twice.”
He laughed as if I’d made a joke. I was still watching him when he left.
I do billing in Kittanning from seven to three, and Wade works second shift at the glass plant. We hand Emma off in the driveway like a relay baton. She goes to preschool at the rec center three mornings a week. The other mornings, she’s home with her daddy.
Tiffany and Clint moved in next door two summers ago. Clint leaves for his shift at the state prison at five every morning, well before I leave for work. I had no reason, then, to connect Emma’s odd little phrase to Tiffany. I only knew it wasn’t a name Wade heard in our house.
Ten days before the Fourth, at 6:45 in the morning, I went to make coffee and found my mama’s percolator gone from the counter. In its place sat a shiny pod machine with a red bow tied around it.
Mama had made coffee in that percolator every morning for forty-one years. Since we buried her last winter, I’d used it too. I know that sounds like a small thing to hold on to. It wasn’t small to me.
“Where’s Mama’s coffee pot?” I asked Wade.
He’d come in from work around midnight. He looked at the new machine instead of at me.
“A guy at the plant gave me that one,” he said. “I put the old one out with a sack of junk.”
“Why would you throw it away?”
“I didn’t think you still wanted it.”
I left for work with that answer, though it didn’t sit right. At 7:25, I saw Mama’s percolator sticking out of Tiffany’s garbage can at the curb.
I was elbow-deep in her trash when she came out onto her porch in her robe.
“You stay out of my garbage, Lauren, or this whole street’s going to hear what kind of wife you really are,” she said.
I pulled the percolator out.
“Mama’s coffee pot isn’t trash,” I said. “Neither am I.”
Tiffany held my gaze for a second, then went back inside. I carried the pot home. I didn’t ask her why it was in her can. I wanted to hear Wade explain it first.
That night, he swore he’d put it out with a sack of junk and Tiffany must have grabbed the sack because our can was full.
“She took it from our garbage?” I asked.
“That’s what I’m saying.”
“Why would she do that?”
“I don’t know, Lauren. It’s a coffee pot.”
He said it like I was making trouble over nothing. I wanted to believe him, so I did, for a few more days.
Seven days before the Fourth, I was hanging sheets when I heard Tiffany on her back step, talking on her phone.
“Soon as the warden’s car is gone, you leave that back door open,” she said. Then she laughed low and went inside.
I stood with a sheet in my hands and told myself the warden was Clint. Clint worked at a prison; it was an easy connection to make. More than that, I wanted the words to have nothing to do with me or Wade.
Five days before the Fourth, Emma was in the bathtub, talking into her toy phone.
“Coast is clear,” she said, and giggled.
Then she looked up at me through the bubbles on her chin. “Mommy warden?”
On the mornings she was home, Wade fixed her pancakes and talked on speakerphone. She’d been listening to both ends. My car left at 7:25 every morning. Clint’s left at five.
I’ve been called worse, but never by a three-year-old with a bubble beard.
I could have asked Wade. I knew how that would go. He could talk a dog off a meat wagon, and I would leave the conversation wondering whether I’d made something out of nothing. I needed to see for myself.
That night I moved the camera I’d bought to watch our beagle, Moose.
I put it behind Mama’s cookie jar on top of the cabinets, where Wade never looked. It took pictures, not sound, but it had a little speaker so I could holler at Moose from my desk.
Four days before the Fourth, I was at work when the app showed Wade home alone after dropping Emma at preschool. At 8:52, the back door opened. Tiffany walked into my kitchen in her gym clothes like she paid the light bill.
She only came on preschool mornings, when the house was empty and her own boy was at day camp. She made herself a cup from the shiny pod machine and hopped up on my counter.
Wade stood between her knees like he’d done it all summer.
I billed a knee replacement to the wrong insurance. I kept working until I could get to the ladies’ room, and then I cried. I don’t know what I thought the pictures would show. I just knew that seeing it was different from guessing.
Three days before the Fourth, I told Rhonda. She lives across the street and rides to work with me. She was the only person I trusted with it.
She let me finish without interrupting. Then she said, “Clint’s been paying on the apartment over my sister’s bakery since the spring, honey. He moves out after the Fourth, and she doesn’t know it yet.”
I stared at her. “Tiffany doesn’t know?”
“No. Not yet.”
I had already suspected Tiffany had chosen Wade for more than his company. Rhonda was blunter.
“She’s shopping for a new daddy for her eight-year-old,” she said. “One with a union paycheck and good insurance.”
I looked across the street toward Tiffany’s house. “What am I supposed to do with that?”
“You make a scene at that block party, and this whole street will call you the crazy one, not her.”
Rhonda wasn’t telling me to forgive anyone. She was telling me how fast a story could turn when neighbors only saw the part they wanted to see. I could have handed a lawyer the pictures. I didn’t want them passed around, saved on somebody’s phone, or found by Emma years from now. She shouldn’t have to see her daddy like that because I needed other people to believe me.
So I made a different plan. At the fence, loud enough for Tiffany to hear, I told Rhonda I was taking the rest of the summer off from the clinic, starting the fifth.
“Taking the whole summer?” Rhonda asked.
“That’s what I said.”
Tiffany was close enough to hear. I didn’t look over to check whether she believed me.
Then I told Wade I’d be on Rhonda’s porch with Emma on the Fourth, pouring coffee from Mama’s percolator until the fireworks.
“Across the street all night?” he asked.
“That’s the plan.”
He looked at me for a beat. “All right.”
I didn’t tell him about the camera. I didn’t need to. I only needed him to think I would be where I said I’d be.
On the Fourth, all of Linden Street was outside with lawn chairs and coolers. It was 8:05 when I settled in on Rhonda’s porch. Emma fell asleep across my lap with a little paper flag still in her fist.
Wade thought I was stuck there for the next hour. At 8:09, he said he was running inside for more ice. At 8:12, Tiffany said she had to go change her shoes.
Rhonda looked at me. I kept my eyes on Emma until she carried her inside to the couch.
The camera app was open on my phone. I could see the kitchen. I could also use the speaker. I waited until they were both inside, then spoke through it.
“Wade. Tiffany. I can see you.”
At 8:20, the whole street heard Tiffany scream.
She came flying around the side of my house barefoot, with Wade right behind her, his shirt on inside out. Both of them were hollering that it wasn’t what anyone thought.
Down by the fire truck, Clint turned his boy toward the ladder.
Wade stared across the street at me and my coffee cup.
“Lauren, you weren’t even in there.”
Ten minutes later, Tiffany came up Rhonda’s steps alone, her hair every which way. She was shaking.
“What did you do?” she said. “I heard you plain as day.”
I set my cup down. I smiled the way she’d looked at me over that garbage can.
“Honey, all I did was pour myself a cup of my mama’s coffee and use the little speaker on my camera.”
“You made me think you were in there.”
“I told you I could see you.”
She glanced toward the street, where people were still gathered around their chairs and coolers. “You could have warned me.”
“I did,” I said. “I warned you by saying I could see you.”
She had no answer for that. She didn’t apologize. I didn’t ask her to.
Wade came over after she left. He started with, “You knew I’d be going in.”
“I knew what you were doing.”
“You weren’t even there.”
“You already said that.”
He looked toward Rhonda’s house, where Emma was still asleep. “Can we talk somewhere else?”
“No,” I said. “You had plenty of mornings to talk to me.”
He began to explain. He said it had gotten out of hand, that he hadn’t meant for it to happen like this. I let him talk until he ran out of words. None of them changed what I’d seen.
“I’m not putting the pictures on anyone’s phone,” I told him. “But I’m not pretending I don’t know, either.”
He lowered his voice. “What do you want me to do?”
“Leave. We can talk about Emma later, when you can tell the truth without making me drag it out of you.”
He stood there a moment, then walked away. I didn’t follow him.
The block party carried on around us. Rhonda brought Emma back out when she woke, and I stayed on the porch. I poured coffee from Mama’s percolator into my cup. Wade didn’t come back to sit beside us.
I hadn’t been in the kitchen when Tiffany and Wade heard my voice. I didn’t need to be. They knew who had spoken, and the people on the street had seen them run out together.
The pictures stayed private. What happened in my house did not.