He asked about the other girls in the cell too. “Were they scared like you?” I told him some cried but most of us just sat there quiet because we knew why we were there. “Did you sing any songs?” he wanted to know.
I said we sang soft so the guards would not hear. The words came out slow in that little room with the one window high up.
The smell of the roses came in strong on the breeze and a bee buzzed around the glass of tea. He swatted at it once and then asked if the police took our shoes away. I told him they let us keep everything but they made us empty our pockets. “What did you have in your pocket Grandma?” he said. I said a penny and a piece of gum that had gone hard. He laughed a little at that and I laughed too because it felt good to tell him the small parts.
Another time he asked about the dress. “Why did Mama keep it so long?” I said because she wanted somebody to remember what happened. He touched the hem real gentle with his thumb. “It feels soft still.” That was the last time he touched it before the paper came home with that F on it.
After the teacher changed the grade my grandson carried his backpack a little higher for a day or two. Then it went back to the same. He has not brought home any more history papers either. I asked him once if the class kept the newspaper on the board. He said yes but he did not look at me when he answered. “They put it up with the other pictures from the book.” That was all he said about it.
The thing I did not count on was how showing those things would change the way he saw me. Before that paper he just saw his grandma who made cookies and told stories on the porch. Now he sees the woman who got arrested and the woman who stood in front of his whole class with the proof in her hands. Maybe that is too much for a boy his age. Maybe he needed more time to decide if he wanted the world to know what his family did back then.
I washed the dress by hand last month even though it did not need it. The water turned a little gray from the old dust. I hung it on the line and the sun made the cotton smell like it did back then. When I folded it up I thought about calling the school again to talk to the teacher alone. But I did not. I put the box away instead and told myself to leave it be.