But life has a funny way of forcing your hand when you try to hide from the truth. Last Sunday at the church missions luncheon, the fellowship hall was bustling with the usual noise of clinking silverware and overlapping conversations.
We had a few new families visiting, and the hospitality committee was making the rounds.
I noticed a woman I didn’t recognize setting a dish down on the long folding tables. A woman named Janet brought a casserole, and someone pointed her out to me, mentioning she had just moved to the area after losing her husband. The name didn’t immediately click.
Janet is a common name. But as I walked over to fulfill my duties as an usher and introduce myself, the atmosphere in the room seemed to shift. When she turned toward me in the fellowship hall she was wearing a locket I have seen in only one photograph, and it was my mother’s.
It was heavy, antique gold, etched with a distinct floral pattern that was burned into my memory. It was the exact locket my mother wore in the only surviving picture we had of her holding baby Bobby. She had always told me she lost it the week my father left.
Seeing it resting against the collarbone of this stranger sent a shockwave through my entire body. The noise of the fellowship hall faded into a dull buzz. I couldn’t breathe. “I’m sorry,” I stammered, my eyes glued to the piece of jewelry. “That locket… where did you get it?” Janet looked down, touching the gold delicately with her fingertips.
A sad, nostalgic smile crossed her face. “My husband gave it to me,” she said softly. “It belonged to his mother. He passed away a few weeks ago, and wearing it makes me feel closer to him.” The floor felt like it was dropping out from underneath me.
“Your husband… was his name Robert?” Janet’s eyes widened in surprise. She took a step back, her defensive instincts kicking in. “Yes. Robert Sawyer. Did you know him? We just moved here from Clarksburg.” I couldn’t hold it in anymore. The walls I had built over sixty years crumbled in an instant.
I grabbed her hand, practically pulling her away from the noisy crowd and out into the quiet hallway by the church offices. I must have looked like a madwoman, tears streaming down my face, shaking uncontrollably. I told her everything. I told her about 1962, the divorce, the father who never stopped driving.
I told her about the mother who died of a broken heart, and the sister who grew up staring at an empty space in the family. Janet listened in stunned silence, her hand covering her mouth. When I finished, she leaned against the wall and began to weep.
“He didn’t know,” she whispered, her voice cracking. “Robert didn’t know he was kidnapped. His father told him that his mother died in a terrible car accident when he was three.