I held my breath, waiting for her to yell at me. I was ready for her to tell me she hated me for burning her memories.
But she didn’t do that.
“I know you burned them, Dad,” she said quietly. “I’ve known for eighteen years.”
I felt the room tilt a little bit. “What?” I asked. “How could you know?”
“I came over early that morning to check on you,” Carly said, and I could hear her voice starting to crack. “I parked down the street.
I walked up the driveway and saw you standing by the burn barrel, throwing them in. I even saw the yellow ribbon lying on the grass.”
I couldn’t say a single word. I just stood there in my quiet kitchen.
“I didn’t even care about the letters, Dad,” she said, and I heard her voice break. “I cared that you looked me in the eye and lied to me. I was grieving too. I needed my father, but you chose to hide behind a lie instead of being sad with me. Every time I saw you after that, I was just waiting for you to tell me the truth. But you never did.”
The weight of those eighteen years came crashing down on me. I had thought I was protecting myself, but all I had done was lock my own daughter out of my life because of my own stupid pride.
“I’m so sorry, Carly,” I sobbed, not even trying to hide the tears anymore. “I’m so, so sorry.”
There was a long pause on the line. I could hear the hum of the traffic on her end, miles and miles away.
“I know, Dad,” she said quietly. “Chloe says the yard looks nice. I think… I think I might come down next weekend to help you finish the shed.”
She hung up after that. I’m still sitting here at the kitchen table, looking at that little charred scrap of paper with her handwriting on it. She didn’t say she forgave me, and honestly, I don’t know if she ever will.
But for the first time in eighteen years, the air in this old house finally feels clear.