By February, I had made six separate reports. Every single one of them was closed for what they called insufficient evidence.
They told me the child denied any abuse at home. Of course he denied it.
He was eight years old and terrified of what they would do to him if he spoke up.
Then came that Monday in March. It was raining hard, I remember that because Toby’s shoes were soaked through.
He walked into the classroom and he couldn’t even take his backpack off his shoulders. His right arm was just hanging there, completely limp against his side.
When I gently went to help him with his coat, he let out a tiny, sharp whimper. I pulled his collar back just a bit to see what was wrong.
His collarbone was completely swollen and sitting at a horrible, crooked angle. It was clearly broken.
I took three pictures on my phone right there in the classroom while the other kids were at library. I called CPS for the seventh time and demanded to speak to a supervisor.
The woman on the desk sounded so tired and uninterested.
“We have it in the system,” she said.
“We’ll have someone there by Friday,” she said.
Friday. It was Monday morning.
“What do I do until then?” I asked.
She just repeated herself in that flat voice. “We will have someone there by Friday.”
I hung up the phone and my hands were shaking. I couldn’t send Toby home on that school bus.
I knew in my gut that if he went back to that house with a broken bone, he might not make it back to school at all.
When the final bell rang at three o’clock, I told Toby to stay put.
I walked him out to my old Buick and buckled him into the passenger seat myself.
I didn’t have a plan, I’ll be honest with you. I just knew I had to keep him safe for one night.
I took him to my house. He sat at my kitchen table, looking so small in my quiet kitchen.
I asked him what he wanted to eat, and he whispered, “Macaroni, please.”
I made him a box of the blue-box Kraft kind. He ate three whole bowls like he hadn’t seen food in days.
While he was eating, I called a lawyer I know from church to ask what I should do next. But before my lawyer could even call me back, there was a loud knock on my front door.
It was the local police. They didn’t ask questions.
They put handcuffs on me right there in front of Toby. His parents had reported him missing, and the school principal had told them I was the last one seen with him.
They took Toby back to his parents that very night. And they locked me in a cell.
At the police station, a detective I’ve known for twenty years came into the holding room. He looked absolutely miserable.