And Thomas Halloran miraculously survived, finishing out his tour of duty before quietly returning to the States to start a new life. “I have lived every single day of the last seventy years waiting for a knock on the door,” the letter concluded. “I built a life on stolen ground.
I loved your grandmother with a borrowed heart. Every time you called me Tommy, a piece of me remembered the boy in the mud whose name I stole to save my own skin.
I am a murderer, a thief, and a coward. But the love I had for this family was the only real thing I ever produced.
I am sorry. Please forgive Walter Briggs, even if you cannot forgive Thomas.” My mother and I sat in total silence for a long time. The house felt entirely different now. The photographs on the walls, the memories in our heads, the very name we carried—it was all built on the frantic, desperate decision of a terrified twenty-year-old boy trying to outrun a firing squad.
We haven’t told my grandmother yet. I don’t know if we ever will. She is eighty-eight years old and mourning the love of her life. Does she really need to know that she spent sixty years sleeping next to a fugitive? I folded the letter and put it back in the envelope.
I don’t know what the right thing to do is. Do I contact the military? Do I leave it alone? All I know is that tomorrow, I have to go to the cemetery to lay flowers on a grave that belongs to a ghost, and I don’t know which name to whisper into the wind.