She paused, and then she did something I think she probably wasn’t allowed to do. “George Whitfield,” she said. “He’s sixty-seven.”
George Whitfield. I said it out loud in the empty room like it might mean something. It didn’t. Not yet.
I called the actual blood bank the next morning. I told them I needed to know about my donor, that it was a match situation, that the lab had already told me his name. The coordinator, a younger guy, was way more by-the-book. But I kept pushing. I was nice about it. Mostly.
“Mr. Whitfield has donated a hundred and ninety-five times,” he finally said.
A hundred and ninety-five. I wrote it down on the little dry-erase board they have for your meal orders. I don’t know why. My hand was shaking so bad you could barely read it.
“He’s very consistent,” the coordinator went on. “He always books the same date. October fourteenth is his primary appointment every year.”
I went cold all over. Not the dramatic kind. The kind where you just go very still and quiet because your body knows something before your head catches up.
October fourteenth is my birthday.
I didn’t say anything for a long time. The coordinator said, “Mrs. Torres? You still there?”
“Yeah,” I managed. “I’m here. Say that date again.”
“October fourteenth.”
I sat there in that bed with my busted ribs and my IV and I started to put it together, and I hated how slow I was being about it. This man. This stranger with my blood. For thirty years he walked into a hospital on the exact day I was born and gave a piece of himself away to people he’d never meet. And he never once came to find me.
I’m not going to lie about how I felt, because that’s the whole reason I’m writing this. My first feeling wasn’t gratitude. It was anger. Ugly, hot anger. Where were you, I thought. You knew the date. You clearly knew. You came to a building once a year for three decades and you couldn’t pick up a phone? You couldn’t knock on a door? I was right here. I grew up forty minutes from the hospital. I had a whole childhood you missed on purpose.
The coordinator was still talking. I’d half tuned him out. Then a sentence snagged me.
“He also has a standing request on file,” he said. “If his blood is ever used for a patient, he asks to be notified.”
My mouth went dry. “Has he been notified about me?”
There was the longest silence on that phone. I could hear him breathing. I could hear a printer going somewhere on his end.
“Mrs. Torres,” he said carefully, “Mr. Whitfield was notified yesterday that his October donation went to an accident patient. When he saw the patient intake date and the birth year on the matching paperwork.” He stopped.
“What,” I said. “When he saw what.”