I don’t know what I expected. I think I expected her to argue, to say I had the wrong house, to laugh even. She didn’t. Her face just sort of came apart, slowly, like she was hearing it in pieces.
She looked down at my hand, at my wedding ring, and I followed her eyes, and then I looked at hers.
It was the same ring. I mean the same. The same setting, the same cut, that little channel of small stones on the band that the jeweler talked us into. We bought mine at a family place off Route 9, a guy named Sal who’d been doing it forty years. I would know that ring anywhere because I wore the matching one for eleven years. He bought us the same ring. He stood in the same shop, probably, and pointed at the same tray.
That is the part that broke something in me. Not the second name. Not even the house. It was the ring. Because the names could have been some scam, some debt thing, some explanation. But you don’t accidentally marry two women with the same diamond from the same man behind the counter. That was a choice he made twice. That was him standing there picking out the exact same thing for both of us because it was easier, or because he liked it, or because he didn’t think we would ever stand on the same porch comparing our hands.
She didn’t slam the door. That’s what surprised me. She opened it wider. She just stepped back and pulled it open like her body decided before her brain did, and behind her in the hallway I could see down to the kitchen, and on the wall there were photos.
Our wedding photos, except not ours. Same poses we did. The one on the beach, his hand on her back, him in a gray suit I had never seen. And there was a high chair pushed up to the table. And a man’s jacket on the hook by the door that I recognized, because I bought it for him two Christmases ago.
I don’t really know how to end this because it hasn’t ended. He’s home now, healing, in our house, the one we put the new roof on. We haven’t talked about most of it. I haven’t told him I drove to Delaware. He doesn’t know I know about her, or that she knows about me, though I think she’s told him by now. I keep waiting to feel something clean and final, anger or relief or whatever you’re supposed to feel. Mostly I just feel tired and kind of stupid for the eleven years.