There it was. The same white strip of cotton. The same thick black thread. The same shaky letters: “Margaret. My wife. Please call her.”
I felt a cold sweat break out on the back of my neck.
I went through the yellow raincoat next. Then the heavy canvas barn jacket he used to wear when he cleared the driveway. Every single coat Walter owned had my name and number sewn inside the lining. Seven coats. Seven tags.
Walter was diagnosed with early-stage dementia in the spring of 2020. By then, we already knew things were sliding away. He had started forgetting where he parked the Buick at the grocery store. He would stand at the kitchen window, staring at the old maple tree in the yard for twenty minutes at a time, looking like he was trying to remember what he had gone into the room for.
When Dr. Vance finally said the words, Walter did not cry. He just sat on the paper-covered examination table, his hands flat on his trousers, and nodded once. He looked at me and said, “Well, Maggie, we will just take it one day at a time.”
He never told me he was afraid. He never admitted that he was starting to feel lost in his own neighborhood. He was a proud man, a retired machinist from the old Oldsmobile plant. He spent his entire life fixing things, keeping his head down, and taking care of me. He did not want to be a burden.
But as I stood in that drafty Goodwill bay, looking at the tags, I realized how much he had been hiding. He must have spent hours down in his basement workshop, sitting at his mother’s old black Singer sewing machine, guiding those little white strips under the needle.
He had always been good with his hands. But toward the end, his fingers had grown stiff and clumsy. The shaky black stitches proved how hard he had to work to get the needle through the heavy linings.
I pulled the oldest coat toward me. It was his gray wool overcoat. I looked at the little fabric tag closely. In the very corner, written in tiny, faded ink, was a date: October 2017.
I sat down on the plastic chair by the donation bin because my knees felt like water. My mind started racing back to 2017. Three years before the doctor ever gave us a diagnosis. Three years before we ever used the word dementia.