The betrayal hit me like a physical blow to the ribs. Rachel. My older sister, who always resented me. Rachel, who was struggling financially at the time and living on my couch rent-free. If Julian had come back, if he had claimed me and the baby, I would have moved out.
I would have stopped supporting her. She traded my son’s father for a free place to sleep.
“Why didn’t you try to find me anyway?” I asked, hating how small my voice sounded.
“I did,” Julian insisted, pulling his wallet out. From behind his driver’s license, he slid out a folded, brittle piece of paper. It was a receipt from a private investigation firm dated 1997. “I paid this guy five thousand dollars I didn’t have. But he was looking for a Chloe married to a guy named Mark in Washington State. Of course he never found you. You were a ghost.”
We sat in silence as a waitress slapped two mugs of coffee down between us, oblivious to the decades of trauma bleeding out onto the table.
“His name is Liam,” I finally said into the quiet.
Julian’s head snapped up. “Liam,” he repeated, testing the syllables like they were fragile. “Liam. You named him after my grandfather.”
“You told me once you wanted a son named Liam. I never forgot.”
The tears spilled over his eyelashes then, catching in the deep lines around his mouth. He didn’t bother wiping them away. “What is he like? Please, Chloe. Tell me everything. Do not leave a single detail out.”
For the next two hours, the diner faded away. I told him about the ear infections when Liam was two. I told him about the time Liam broke his arm falling out of a neighbor’s oak tree at age nine. I talked about how Liam struggled with math but could build intricate, sprawling cities out of spare cardboard boxes, which eventually led to his engineering degree.
I told Julian how Liam would ask about his father. How I had fed my son a sanitized, half-true narrative: Your dad got an amazing job overseas. We were too young. We just went separate ways. I never told Liam about the Polaroid. I never told him I sat outside his father’s apartment building too terrified to go inside.